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Man, what happened?  

I'm sorry Big, that is tough.  Don't give up on yourself, just keep trying to make every day a little bit better than the last.

As an FYI, I lost both of my folks in the past two (2) years ... in my pain and lostness, along with sensing I was losing my wife ... I believe I fell into a porn addiction.  When confronted about it ... I lied.  I'm not sharing this to garnish any attention really.  I just know that I lost the most important person I loved ... and I didn't realize that looking at porn was an issue for me.  As some of you know, I was a Pastor once.   I thought what I was doing was no big deal.  Guess porn became my little "drug".  I don't really drink or smoke, no issues with any addictions prior ... but in my pain ... I fell into this.  All that to say, again, this season, even if it goes south ... won't hurt me much.  I'm just trying to recover and move forward at this point in my life.  Maybe my Huskers can put a smile ... but they will never fill my void and pain ... not even close.  #Broken.

I don't want to pretend to begin to understand what you are going through, but find someone asap that can be a person to lean on.  I don't know you from Adam, but I'd be an ear for you.

Hang in there man. Your boys need you. It may look bleak now but lean on your faith. 

Don't stay at home alone. Join a gym, mens group, something. There are people in your circle that value you and want you around.  Lean on them. 

sh#t, if you're addicted to porn id hate to know what i am. Fact is, some women dont like it and see it as a no no and others dont really care. But, the no no women better be available for sex fairly often if they want to be that way imo.

Also, fyi, i got divorced 9 years ago and have 1 daughter. At first i thought i was not gonna make it. But it got a lot better, and now i couldnt imagine being married to that b!^@h. I had to be a miserable human when i was with her, she is just an absolute life sucker of a human being.